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Thursday, December 19, 2013

Ready For Hiatus

Hi again everyone, it's been too long since my last post about Layla. And, i just finished my last finance test this morning. I hope we will pass all the subject. And yesterday i just did my store layout presentation. And i am kind of proud for what we've done because to be honest, store layout was never my thing (since i am fashion business student) and i was never aware of this subject. I thought i could have some fun, but i did have fun (a little bit). You know the feeling of nailing something in one condition you never did it before. Store layout is somehow unpredictable and i was kind of surprise. I really hope i can pass this one because it took so much effort i could not imagine. hehehe

Anyway, i will spend my 5 days of my holiday in Malang, enjoying new cafes perhaps, meeting my girls and share stories. Cant wait to meet them, by the way. I just cant wait to enjoy a very quality time with myself, give myself some credits. Maybe visit coffee shop i usually go to do my assignments, and this time i won't bring my huge bag and laptop with me. Oh, it must be great.

Happy Holiday!

Thursday, November 28, 2013


Bukan karena red velvet yang saya makan, bukan hujan deras sore ini, bukan dia yang tertawa bersama saya di ujung dunia sana, bukan juga tugas saya. Tapi kamu. Bukan lagi memori tentang kamu, tapi harapan saya yang ternyata masih ada disana. Masih diujung sana menunggu untuk diselamatkan. Saya tidak memilih untuk pergi mencari karena ternyata lebih nyaman disakiti terus. Bukan, bukan lagi kamu. Tapi oleh harapan saya. Ternyata bukan lagi kamu yang jadi asam sekaligus manisnya jus stroberi saya, tapi mimpi indah saya yang terus datang tiap malam untuk menghidupkan sosok kamu di setiap tidur saya. Ternyata bukan lagi suara kamu yang jadi candu tapi sepotong memori saya tentang kita yang ternyata masih mengendap di otak. Iya, otak bukan di hati. Ironis bukan? Karena ternyata yang menghidupkan kamu dalam harapan saya bukan sakit hati saya melainkan logika otak saya. Kata orang saya bisa cenayang. Saya bisa lihat kamu dengan orang lain. Saya tahu kamu dengan orang lain. Yang saya tidak tahu, yang saya heran, apakah perlu saya ada di hidup kamu jika akhirnya kamu sama orang lain? apa perlu ada saya di hidup kamu setahun ini tapi akhirnya kamu sama orang lain? Ini bukan lagi tentang dua jadi satu, soulmate, atau bahkan teman hidup. Ini saya sama kamu. Ini semesta saya yang keluar orbit dan tidak sengaja bergesekan dengan semesta kamu yang adem ayem. Ini saya yang lucunya percaya kalau tempat saya adalah di samping semesta kamu, berdempetan, sejajar selalu. 
Saya tidak menyalahkan dia, tapi nyatanya saya masih sayang kamu.


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Monday, November 18, 2013

Classy {slash] Classic

Hey, i am in the middle of the attack of assignments, i wont lie, this is too overwhelming, trying to put myself in the right order. while i am in true depressed about my store layout project, i decided to do what i need to do, and i found this tumblr and i know God helps me all this time, i just didn't see it. The fact about our role model a.k.a Audrey Hepburn, she was nomaden. She was born in Belgium, and she moved to boarding school, ever learnt ballet (what......), and she ever rented a house in Beverly Hills and thank you, Sir Mark Shaw - who was the photographer.

Ask and you will be given.

huge love

Friday, November 1, 2013


Hello everyone, it's been a hectic week and i try to put myself back to this mind-blowing activities of mine. And guess what, i get little times to share what my top 5 favorite instagram accounts. Generally, it's my version of good posts, so yeah, i will have it my way.

In the 5th place is a fashion blogger from Indonesia, i kind of fancy her vintage and preppy style. If i can add, it's difficult to compete her to dress vintage-ly. She - most of the time - nailed it. And.... *drum roll* congratulation @lucedale. If you ever looked her instagram, i actually like the way she edits her photos. She uses vsco cam if i am not mistaken, i am not really familiar with smartphone's photo editor, actually.

Anyway, the 4th place is placed by an artist, not actually a common artist who paint in canvas or paper, she decorates plates by putting the food artistically and somehow i really love it. It's good for inspiration, tho. And i am enjoying her photos on my dashboard. hehe. It is @idafrosk. Her real name is Ida Skivenes and she is from Norway. She already published her book. It is available in Amazon.

The 3rd place is stolen by a lovely lady from Russia. She has good taste for photography. I love most of her photos. And congrats @anastasiakuzmina !!

So we almost done here. the 2nd place goes to she who dedicates her life to travel and eat. A singaporean. And she makes me craving for delicious foods on my diet program. *r.i.p diet* anywayyyyy, congratulation Brad Lau, you are in the 2nd place. Talking about you makes me hungrier. I should stop. hehehehe

Does this waffle look very.......i don't know, attractive?

It's killing me, tho. Hahahaha but congrats anyway.

And the one and only instagram account i really adore and very inspirative is maybe kind of shocking and you will disagree but as said, i will have it my own way so.... here it is..

@ellemayleckenby congrats! Anyway you guys dont get prize or what so ever but i adore you guys. You all are amazing. I lover her photos and i bet she is a photographer and also a fashion enthusiast.

Anyway, that's all.


Thursday, October 24, 2013

thank God it only happens to me.

I am having a real bad day. I never realise that one day can be very very very painful and ironic at the same time. I dont want to tell the whole story but the day before yesterday, my permission to come to one of fashion show today was accepted. But the schedule makes me hardly come, i don't say i can't come, but i hardly come. And i really want to wear black sweater which i don't have yet. And when i try to buy one, i stuck in the traffic jam, so i decided to go back home. I thought i can figure that out. But sometimes, you have to stop trying to know what is worth fighting for. What do you really want. And i moved on to the store layout project, i was about to draw space zoning and i realised it's gone. it's not with me anymore. And i was jut upset and mad and sad and i was about to cry, and i cried in the of the day. the teacher just said yes to the space configuration last monday and it's gone today. It's heartbreaking. No i am not being melodramatic, it's too much to handle. You've been working this project for weeks, and when it's done, the project decided to go.

ANYWAY how about your day? ruined as mine? or blessed as my other day?

Monday, October 21, 2013


Hi everyone, i am currently watching video advertisement of Roberto Cavalli and Just Cavalli for my assignment and then i have to write the report based on my analysis about the video. I choose Roberto Cavalli Fall/Winter Collection 2013 - 2014. Liu Wen, Liya Kebede and Iselin Steiro are starring the video and the video looks very 'cavalli'. You know, strong personality, very stands out, bold and charismatic. It's perfect. 
And what i am saying for my assignments are these:

"The theme of the video that is directed by Mario Testino, tells us about three elegant women who stand out from a crowd because the bold and brave style they have. These women are from different race, which represents that Roberto Cavalli is universal. Every woman in this world can wear Roberto Cavalli. But it cleverly doesn’t lose its exclusivity. Beside exclusivity, glamour, and stands out of the crowd, this video presents highly strong kind of women who are not afraid for being differently charismatic. And what I am saying here is by wearing Roberto Cavalli, women will feel adored, wanted, worshiped, and every one else can only be jealous and mad at themselves.

The marketing impact by publishing this video are this video is good for building its brand image, this video is also a tool to inform the customers what will Roberto Cavalli looks like in Fall/Winter 2013-2014. This video is purposed to show what Roberto Cavalli brings this Fall and show what is so important about them. Beside building brand image and a tool to inform the customers, this video is very provocative in term of suggesting people. Because what I am seeing here in the video, three women with highly strong personalities and charisma want to conquer the world. Who doesn’t want to hold the world in her hand? Roberto Cavalli successfully communicate its brand image."

What do you think?

Friday, October 11, 2013

Current Emotion #2

Ever picture yourself strangle random people in bright and blessed sunny day because you are too bored and too tired for everything and you just get mad and suddenly strangle people?

That is what happens in me. I want to strangle people.


Wednesday, October 9, 2013


Why do i always feel my heart stop every time i see R-word, especially names.. God, that is exhausting.

Il √Čtait Une Fois

Once Upon A Time

These videos are giving me goosebumps. Long story short, that happened before we all know Chanel; high end brand from France. She did not follow the crowd, she made one. She started from zero. zero-ro-ro-ro. She mesmerized me, for sure. I don't cry but i am about to, because even Chanel had her own depression moments and she still could face the world that doubt her.

I am scared to say that she is my role model, but she is.
And maybe some of you wonder why i post two videos with different language, because you better know, the french one gives extra goosebumps.


Hi Hi Hi!

Maybe it's too late to say hi to October, but i will say it anyway.

It is one of lame posts, but i will post it anyway. So this october is my second month of my 4th semester. Yes, don't be so surprised people, I have two years to go. Anyway, on this semester, there is a new subject i should learn titled: store layout. It is pretty complicated, rough, complex, not easy, and not easy, and also not easy. Why? Because i can't measure correctly. It takes me hours to draw one part of our stores (we do it in group, so Thank God). I feel you, interior design students, i feel you.

I am kind of over-think people. So i have so many things to think about, and i also over-react. No, i don't scream to people if i get mad or something goes wrong, i just act calm; like nothing happens. But in my head is full of chaos. I say too many 'what if' to myself. And i will end up crying, disappoint myself and yah you know.

But, i am very glad that i survive. omg this is non-sense. hahaha i just being gloomy. I am sorry people.

huge love

Monday, October 7, 2013


OMG i just watched this guy on youtube, he is so hilarious, SO HILARIOUS. You might know this guy but i just found him on Raditya Dika's new episodes of Malam Minggu Miko 2 and he is just ridiculous. He might cut his own uric shame, or somewhat losing his mind. I have never been this happy watching silly videos on youtube. He is doing great job.

It's not funny, but hilarious, you have to know the different hahaha.

What Mushrooms Do To Me

I am done reading the last book of tetralogy by Dee Lestari. That last piece is titled Partikel. It basically complete three others and be the one which close the whole case from the first book. It is kind of complicated because i honestly dont understand about most of names of mushroom (yeah, the books talk about mushroom, 'what they see when they eat mushroom', Eboka:which is the one name of many names of mushroom in that book, what mushroom is capable of doing, etc.)

I guess she wanted us to know that mushroom is one of most strongest organism in this earth, and the mushrooms are not only for pleasure but also for finding spirit inside us. Well, that's kind of deep, and i bet you want to stop reading this post (btw, i do) but but but, what is so interesting about the tetralogy is, there is always one and two love affair inside them. She uses unique situation to put betrayal, or when the character found their real soulmate. it somehow makes me warm. You know the feeling when you read novel and it ends happily ever after. But in these novels, they give me impression that it doesn't have to be prince charming; the ones who got the best smile, the best look, the best wealth but it has to be the one who suits you best. The one who knows you better than you know yourself. Well, it sounds naive, but i'd like to have life partner like that. (the rest of the requirement wont be declared here, of course) hahahaha.

Anyway, today is going good. I just got home (not home actually but my father's office is my second second home after Grand Indonesia, {well, that's what my friends told me} because home is where you find a strong wifi, yes?)

The Tetralogy

Friday, October 4, 2013


It's funny, tho, every time you try hard, you end up fail yourself, make yourself feel worse than you actually are. you always wish to start over, learn something new, doing good, pray harder, but you end up disappoint yourself. you think you don't deserve thing you deserved. it happens, like a lot. it happens every time, actually. it gives you bad feedback about yourself and you cant help it. that's sad. it's like you fail every time you try. the most painful is you tried hard. you gave your best.


You Deserve It

What does it feel when you find the missing piece of you, the half of you? will you notice? will you realise that he's the one who you've been looking for?

what kind of situation will i deal with when i find you, or you find me.
will you say 'hi'? will you smile at me and say "where have you been all this time?"

Or we will meet in messed-up kind of situation. when you are still in relationship with you girlfriend and i am still thinking that my ex will somehow come back and say "i am sorry makes you waiting for too long"

or you will be the one who say "i am here all this time, with you, sharing things but never love because you're too afraid to get hurt because you think you don't deserve the love people give you. i spend time with you more than you know. the truth is; you deserve big love, because you give people too much love. and i am here standing in front of you convincing you that you deserve it."


Greetings From Audrey

Hi again people who pass my blog by accident,

I am spending time to write on one my day off, it doesn't feel good because i could wake up later and watching movies all day long, but since we all know, each people need to get their ass off of coach to change the world, so do i, so i wake up and ready for today. Today's plan is basically the same with the rest of my weeks, finishing my projects.

Anyway, those sweatshirts stuff, i don't really take it seriously, they can walk away if they want, but it is nice to relate my personal life with fashion, if you know what i mean. But those sweatshirts are lovely, aren't they?

But, as Ed Sheeran said, "Maybe i should let you go.." 

No, i am not talking about you, it's for the sweatshirts.


Thursday, October 3, 2013


because everyone moves on but me

At last, there is only me staying here to heal my wounds. It's not because they don't care, it's because i stop convincing them "that hurt", so yeah, i will be fine.

Anyway, i am adoring sweatshirts from Kenzo, if you know those are eye sweatshirts. Both white and black are such lovely. It will be great if i can have them both.
But, the thing is, i cant get them. They are out of my reach, like you. They simply walk away as the season ends. Like you. And i will be here staring them leaving me. You don't give me chance to convince you that i will love you better. What hurt the most is: she deserves you. I really hope you would be the last, but as Stephen says: "we accept love we think we deserve."

I never can share pains, because it will be not polite to see someone else sad because of me. It's the best to keep this by and for myself, because at the end, there is only me standing here by myself to heal the wounds. You are your own cure. Time helps.

Scumbag sweatshirts are scumbag


Monday, September 16, 2013

Blossoms, You, and Warm Weather

"If i try to buy one of these clothes, how much it will cost me..?"
"You don't try, you just...buy." 

Alice+Olivia//Spring RTW2014//Source: style.com

Alice+Olivia//Spring RTW2014//Source: style.com

Alice+Olivia//Spring RTW2014//Source: style.com

Alice+Olivia//Spring RTW2014//Source: style.com
These four are my most favorites pieces from Alice+Olivia. The colors, the daisy patterns, the preppy-ness, and what message in it; they are wrapped in one good package, and ready to go. Nice!


Wednesday, September 11, 2013

They Took A Snap

New York Fashion Week//Street Style//Source: Style.com

New York Fashion Week//Street Style//Source: Style.com

Copenhagen Fashion Week//Street Style//Source: Style.com

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Brace Myself

i wonder why my post from grave can be a popular post? i am wondering is there anyone here is digging my past or something? hahahaha just kidding. there is no one dig my past.

anyway i am writing this post in one of fast-food restaurant near my home. This - honestly - is not comfortable. very uncomfortable. i just done my poster for my cousin. it is funny tho because i never done such a thing. i mean make some poster is not my expertise. it needs imagination and my 'engine' doesnt warm yet, if you know what i mean. anyway, i finished it anyway. it is good to have job that suits my passion. anyway, i have one day left before i go to the battlefield. this term will be my 4th term and i am really excited. wish me luck okay, pal?

much much love

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Too Random To Discuss, Huh?

Look at your shuffle playlist and answer the list of random questions below.

Who are you?
Hall of Fame – The Script feat Will.I.Am
I see myself as a dream-reacher, not a social climber. I do what i think it is necessary to make my dreams come true. 

What are you looking for in this life?
Little Mix - Wings
I look for success, i guess. Be successful, it is what people look for in life right?

How would you describe yourself?
Casey Abrams – Simple Life
It doesnt describe me, btw. 

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Home – Michael Buble
I will be away and far from home and i will sing this song that day.

Have you got a feeling for someone right now?
I Choose You – Timeflies, The Script- The six degrees of Separation

If you had to go to a deserted island, what three items would you bring?
Krewella - Alive
Water, Sun cream, Sunglasses

Who is your hero?
The Script – If You Could See Me Now
My Dad

Is there anything that worries you?
Swedish House Mafia – Don’t You Worry Child
Achieving my dreams

Why on earth are you here?
Breakaway – Kelly Clarkson
To break the rules and tradition that made, i guess.

How have you changed the world with your current power?

Lloyd, I’m Ready To Be Heartbroken
Hi, Lloyd.

Don't Fall


This is the third day of my holiday and i still do nothing to make it more valuable. But honestly, this kind of holiday is what i expect. Staying in bed watching my favorite tv series. Most of them are in FoxCrime. My new favorite tv series called The Fall. It is a casual murder investigation in England, especially in London starring by Gillian Anderson. i always love the accent she has. This leads me to the conclusion that most of detectives wear coats; black or brown and slick-clean shoes, silk blouses, and many more. and that leads me to make some interpretations for fall based on the officer's dress code. I mean, they wear coats like in every scene in the film, you wont wear coats in summer, will you?
Source: Asos, Pinterest, Google, Zara
I choose converse sneakers because it adds some boyish sense to the feminise look of the officer, and in reality it makes them chase the bad guys easier, but for they who have job only in the office or do some administration job they will need those preppy heels that is still formal or boots will be great. 

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

My Personal Issue

Hello again, anyone who pass my blog. I just changed my blog. Again. And i already prepared the answers. You can find out: this is why.

much love

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Break Even

Come on, what would i do without you

I never literally said i love my parents, but i do. before it is too late or the situation gets too sour to say. 

I love you Mum Dad. Literally. <3 

Friday, August 23, 2013

Trend Analyst

My final project for Trend Analysis who taught by Ichwan Thoha, we were divided into three groups that would present Formation. Formation - here - is a first fashion and trend forecast company in Indonesia. And sir Ichwan gave us one concept each group to be presented. My group got Black Swan film that starring by Natalie Portman. We basically had to convince our potential clients that Black Swan will be trend in Spring 2014. We do research and analysis before the presentation. Glad to know Sir Ichwan loved all of groups' presentation. To be honest, the most thrilling part is when we did the photo shoot, even though it is not as good as i expected, the photo shoot was fun. Beside photo shoot, i also collage some photos to be presented last wednesday. hehehe collaging photos is one of my hobbies.
Sir Ichwan also set the dress code at that day. Since we were still in atmosphere of 17th of August (which is Indonesia Independence Day) he chose Military Chic. He dressed very well, if i can say. He always dress well, if i can add. hehe.

The class was very fun, and relieving because he was impressed with our presentation. I wish we pass his class. 

Web Face of Formation

Formation's Logo

The Key Items

Photographed by Wysley Sanjaya
Location: Catedral Jakarta

Do not be silly, Darling

Heeyooo everyone who pass my blog

Since i already broke up with my demanding assignments, i have much leisure time to blog but i dont know what to write, to be honest.

I have been thinking since the last time i watched The Devil Wears Prada. That is one of my favorite Anne Hatthaway's films.  Let's call her Andrea now. I remembered when the first time i watched this film is when i was in 9th grade. i thought Andrea was a clever journalist who stuck with people who judge people only by their appearance. I thought it was simple to decide which belt Miranda had to use in a photo shoot. I thought it was easy to decide what the best concept to use in one photo shoot. I thought it was so easy to dress well and impress people. I - honestly - underestimated Miranda and The Runway. I blamed their cruelty and rudeness to Andrea at that time.

But. three weeks ago, i watched The Devils Prada for the second time in my Trend Analysis class. How should i express this feeling? I felt that Andrea is not clever at all. I choose a side against Andrea. During this film i said to myself "For God's sake, Andrea, you dont simply dress like that when you work in high fashion magazine" "You can not wear those grandma's sweaters when you meet Miranda, you know MIRANDA." "Seriously? Those belts are so different, just so you know."

"Girls kill to get your job, Andrea." When i was in 9th grade i thought that is ridiculous, but now, yes i will kill to be in her position. Not only that, i will revive her to be close to Miranda, if i have to.

I realized that it is not that easy to do photo shoot, to choose concept for making a fashion spread, to get sponsors, to make communication strategies, to make a fashion brand that suits my style, to plan a fashion show, to design clothes.  What i am saying is, you can not judge people by what they do for living. You can not judge unless you have been there or living the exact same life with people you judge.

"Fashion is fun, it is not a brain surgery,
and the whole point of fashion is having fun,
but we still have to work."

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Paid Off


Those sleepless nights are now paid off! I am so done with this semester, i hope i can pass the whole subjects. I didnt sleep much these days because of my everlasting assignments. But now, those dark ages is over. Welcome holiday, i gladly welcome you. Last tuesday was the first time for me to stay at LaSalle that late. Well, security don't let us to stay until we are done but i stayed until 8 p.m. and i was exhausted. too exhausted to eat.

today was the last the day of my 3rd semester and i had Private Label Development presentation. It went smooth, Alhamdulillah, even though i dont know my marks yet i really hope i would pass.

This subject was too remarkable to forget, to be honest. I created my own brand, imagine myself having my own brand is one of my favorite daydreams, then design clothes for my brands (that mostly suit my style, hehe) then the rough parts happened. my life crumbled and when i realized i was in the bottom of earth. Busy weeks and assignments are the ones i found during days and my laptop's desktop was full of assignments. But the hardest part was dealing with the tailor. You know, i never get along with tailor, this one does not make any different.

Then do the measurements, i am feeling like one of those tailors or fashion design student hehehe. I had no idea how to measure clothes. But as i said, those hard works, those sleepless nights, those tired days, they are all paid off today. It will be better if i pass, but this is enough. Alhamdulillah.

My brand :D

Color Inspiration - Black

Color Inspiration - Colar Mist

Measurement Grading in Technical Pack